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Old and Miserable presents BPD and Me: Zero F***s Given

Old and Miserable presents BPD and Me: Zero F***s Given

By Old and Miserable

For the last 25 years, Borderline Personality Disorder ruled my life, though it never had a name. Once the problem finally received a diagnosis (only a year or so ago), it was then that I could begin to work towards making my world a better place for everyone, including me.

It's been a hell of a battle, but I'm still going strong. This podcast is a way for me to share my struggles with those who may be struggling themselves, and hopefully offer some help in the process.

Old and Miserable presents BPD and Me: Zero F***s Given

Remember: We Aren't So Different and We Aren't So Alone
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My QHHT experience - Going back to go forward

Old and Miserable presents BPD and Me: Zero F***s GivenMar 20, 2019

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Where I've been and what I'm doing

Where I've been and what I'm doing

May of 2019 is when I was last here, and since then, this podcast has astounded me. At over 3000 plays, I am so amazed at how much my episodes of craziness and advice have been listened to! I am so thankful for every one of you all!

This episode, I talk about the things I have been doing and the plans I am working on. I talk about what I have learned over the past while, and how I have put it into practice, moving me more and more into the life I want, and I use that to help you in the process!

Thank you for being here and listening. I hope you enjoy!

Feb 02, 202126:26
Change your life and be who you want to be!

Change your life and be who you want to be!

Well, here we are! Almost another month has gone by, so I guess it's time for another episode! :P 

... I really need to be more consistent... :P


Today, I talk about how to have a better life. We all want one, and I know the secret to getting one. It's so easy! Give a listen and find out!


As always, be sure to share! Thanks so much for being awesome!

May 09, 201912:17
A new episode with a new me!

A new episode with a new me!

Sorry I have been away for so long! There's been a LOT of stuff happening in my life, and I finally got the chance to get you listeners up to speed!

In this brief episode, I talk about what's been going on in my life, my triumphs over some things and my removal of others, and just catch you all up with me, in general.

Not too sure if you all know, but we're up to over 950 plays! You all rock! That's almost a billion! :P Let's keep rockin' it!

Thanks for listening! Feel free to share!

Apr 17, 201910:00
My QHHT experience - Going back to go forward

My QHHT experience - Going back to go forward

Here it is, boys and girls! Here is the episode you've been waiting for...

My QHHT (Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique) experience!


This was something life -changing! I will NEVER be the same again, and that's ok!!! If you are struggling in life, in need of answers, QHHT is for you! One session has completely rewired my being, and I am so much happier and lighter because of it!

My hypnosis was performed by a wonderful woman named Helen Benko, who can be found here:

http://www.thetouchoflightbyhelen.ca/index.htm

But for those of you who don't live near me, you can go to this website and find a practitioner near you:

https://www.qhhtofficial.com/find-a-practitioner

(I say https://dolorescannon.com/ in the episode - either one should work!)


Thank you so much, Helen, for everything! You have helped me so much! May you have wonderful success in all the work you do!

Thanks for listening! Feel free to share!

Mar 20, 201917:41
Tomorrow is the big day!!! Also, some new stuff is happening!!!

Tomorrow is the big day!!! Also, some new stuff is happening!!!

In this episode, I talk about the 13th of March, and how I feel it will be one of the best days of my life! I also talk a bit about something I'll be trying with future episodes; something that will be a benefit to those who listen!

Thank you all so much for listening! Feel free to share it around!


Stay tuned for more!!!

Mar 12, 201907:45
Sorry I'm late... let's do some drugs and get hypnotized!

Sorry I'm late... let's do some drugs and get hypnotized!

It's been a while since I put out an episode, but I have good reasons! Between dealing with BPD and it's symptoms, among other things, it's been a bumpy, up and down road. But I made it back! 


Thanks for listening! Hope you enjoy! Be sure to share!

Mar 04, 201910:55
Short, but fun! Just a quick catch-up!

Short, but fun! Just a quick catch-up!

Sorry for the late episode!!! Had a bit of a bump in the road... 


Today, I discuss what's been going on; I talk about my dog, my new "job" and my outlook on life. Enjoy!


Feel free to share! Thanks for listening!

Feb 11, 201911:42
Need some motivation?

Need some motivation?

Today's episode is all about positivity! 


Thanks for listening! Feel free to share!

Feb 04, 201914:36
Short, but informative - meditation, mindfulness and me

Short, but informative - meditation, mindfulness and me

Hello! 

Today's episode is about the meditations I use, how I get mindful, and I throw in some of the same stuff I talk about in other episodes. Sure, it's repeating the same stuff, but it's truth!!! I also talk about my marijuana use and how it's changed over the past few days.


Hope you enjoy! Feel free to share!

Jan 30, 201912:22
I'm done with emotions... and pot...

I'm done with emotions... and pot...

In today's episode, I talk about emotions (specifically anger) and how I try to deal with them. It's been something I've struggled with for years, tho quite a lot more recently...

I also talk a bit about my past, and how things have shaped me to be who I am today. 

Thanks for listening! Feel free to share!

Jan 25, 201918:47
The lunar eclipse of 2019 and some ramblings

The lunar eclipse of 2019 and some ramblings

Hey! Thanks for stopping by!


Today's episode is just random babble. I talk about the lunar eclipse and super blood wolf moon that will be happening tonight, starting around 9pm, and a bit about my spiritual journey. I discuss my feelings over the last couple of days... and that's basically it.


Not a huge episode today. Easy to listen to! :P


Thanks for listening! Feel free to share!

Jan 20, 201911:57
F***in' magnets; how do they work?

F***in' magnets; how do they work?

Thanks for stopping by!

This episode, I talk about an experience I had that changed my life for the absolute better! I cannot say enough about how amazing the experience was; it was one that changed me forever in a way that will never be undone! 

If you listen to this and say 'it's all made up', all I can say is 'don't knock it till you try it!'

Hope you enjoyed! Stay tuned for more!

Jan 15, 201916:58
This one is better! I promise!

This one is better! I promise!

Sorry about the last one... I feel I vented and ranted too much... but this one is better!

In it, I talk about my outlook on life, as I mentioned in the previous episode, I discuss things I have been doing to help myself get better, and I mention things I have been thinking about doing to further my creativity.

I also leave some 'words of wisdom', so to speak... if anything this wise-guy says is wisdom :P

Thanks for listening!

Jan 11, 201914:16
Only takes one bump to throw you off the road...

Only takes one bump to throw you off the road...

Sadly, BPD rears it's head again, proving once and for all that it's just like everyone keeps believing/saying: I'll have this problem forever.

This episode may be a bit ranty... sorry. Just had some stuff I wanted to get out... 

Due to some problems, I have slipped from the path of happiness, and I have to work hard to get out of this slump. In this episode, I talk about boundaries and my struggle with them. I also talk about my plans for how I would like to begin living life again. 


Thanks for listening! 

Jan 10, 201916:27
NO MORE BPD!!!???!!! I AM CURED!!! YOU CAN BE, TOO!!!

NO MORE BPD!!!???!!! I AM CURED!!! YOU CAN BE, TOO!!!

Oh, mama! 


This is an episode that will begin a change in this podcast!


I have been away for a while, but in that time, I have overcome BPD and learned so much about myself! Yes, I know it's hard to believe, but I did it! I have made leaps and bounds in life that I never thought I would be able to see, let alone make, and because of it all, I am proud to say that I do not suffer with the disorder anymore!


It's going to take some time to explain, and I don't do it here, but that  just means I get to record more episodes! Yay!


In the time I have been away, I have seen the total plays of this podcast DOUBLE, meaning that something is working here. I am humbled by this fact, and I thank you all, from the bottom of my heart, for listening! 


This episode marks the beginning of a change; one that, I feel, will show you how your life can be better, be anything you want, and how I am making that a fact in my life. Stay tuned for more episodes, and join me as life gets better for all of us!!!

Jan 05, 201911:26
BPD and Me: Again with the switch?

BPD and Me: Again with the switch?

I am changing, and so this podcast will, too; thank BPD for that. I am so lost in life, looking for fulfilment, for happiness... But that is changing too, and for the better.

Stay tuned!!
Oct 15, 201803:24
BPD And Me - Episode 10: What am I doing now?

BPD And Me - Episode 10: What am I doing now?

Warning!!!

I have not listened to this.... I just recorded and posted.

This is a rant/update post. I talk about changes. Please listen and be informed.

Thank you for your time. Thank you for your patience. Please stay tuned.
Sep 17, 201814:37
BPD And Me - Episode 8: I love my father, however...

BPD And Me - Episode 8: I love my father, however...

Thank you for listening, everyone! Another unedited one, but it's hard to edit, having to hear myself say it again...

This is hard stuff to deal with, and I have been struggling with this for so long... Maybe I have to work through this on my own, but I want it out to the public, to show everyone the many ugly faces that BPD can have. I want to show everyone that if you have problems with emotion, you're not alone.

I want to help everyone. I always have, and always will. I also want to help myself, to heal and get back that which I lost...

Why not have both?

Remember to show and share the love!
Aug 18, 201814:00
BPD And Me - Episode 7: The Hardest Episode I Have Ever Recorded

BPD And Me - Episode 7: The Hardest Episode I Have Ever Recorded

This episode, I talk about ALL of the symptoms finally!

I also explain something that has happened recently... something that has made me stop everything and refocus my life and energy into a new direction.

I also have an emotional breakthrough while recording, which is partly why I put this up unedited. At the end, there's a message for everyone that I have in my life.

Thanks for listening! Please share the love!
Aug 17, 201825:12
BPD And Me - Episode 6: A longer, but not bad day blurb! Update time!

BPD And Me - Episode 6: A longer, but not bad day blurb! Update time!

Not an episode about BPD, really... but it kinda is...

Just an episode about a recent realization I came to while trying to figure out life. I talk about recent changes in my life, and where I'm hoping to go in the near future.

Next week, I will (hopefully) have a real episode again! And (hopefully) with the wife!

Thanks for listening! Share it out!
Aug 07, 201812:35
BPD And Me - Episode 5: Bad Day Blurb

BPD And Me - Episode 5: Bad Day Blurb

Hey everyone :)

Anxiety and stress are in overdrive today, so this episode is only about 5 minutes long. It's just a short thing about things that are in the works for future projects, and that's really all there is.

Feel free to listen, like and share!
Jul 30, 201804:36
BPD And Me -BONUS- Freestyle rant (READ DESCRIPTION FIRST!!)

BPD And Me -BONUS- Freestyle rant (READ DESCRIPTION FIRST!!)

Just needed to get things out... BE SURE TO READ!!!

A lot of times, my feelings and emotions tend to boil over and ... well, it never turns out all that good. So I figure I would use this platform of sharing to show people what the thought process of a typical day for me in the magical fairy wonderland that is BPD can usually be like.

Rest assured, this is not going to be pretty. But, if you think you can handle the real side of BPD, listen on.

Please share!!!
Jul 27, 201804:52
BPD And Me - Episode 4: M. Jackson - Black or White matters!
Jul 24, 201825:49
BPD And Me - Episode 3: Stay close and go away

BPD And Me - Episode 3: Stay close and go away

Welcome back to a special episode of BPD And Me! :o

What makes today's episode special, you ask? Well, for starters, the audio is on point... which means there are loud points I couldn't get quiet - sorry!

Also, today's topic is also on point... meaning it's actually about the first symptom - the fear of abandonment!

But... the best secret is still to come... curious?

Then hit play! And be sure to say hi in the comments!

Also, please remember to share this with anyone and everyone, so that it may lead to helping someone!
Jul 17, 201817:32
BPD And Me - Episode 2: Wanna walk in my shoes?

BPD And Me - Episode 2: Wanna walk in my shoes?

Welcome back!

This episode was going to be about one of the symptoms of BPD, but my mind was in no condition to think, so I decided to tell you about my day with the illness and how it affects me.

What started as a 15 minute recording was "skillfully" edited down to about 12! This is the timeframe I am hoping to keep each episode, but we'll see how it goes!

Remember to share!

P.S. : I was told there were some who couldn't hear the first episode. I changed a few settings in the recording of this one, so hopefully it's better!
Jul 10, 201813:21