Don't miss the big picture, not paying attention to the small details. We ask for signs and things to happen and then we are to busy to notice or be bothered to embrace the opportunity to learn something. Life is not a coloring book, it's ok to go outside the lines. Don't stay in the land of structure and schedule, allow yourself to enjoy life and embrace the moment. You may see so much you have been missing. After having three spine surgeries, I have learned planning doesn't always go so well and having to be able to learn to roll with the punches is crucial to being a good person and parent.
Lots of people believe if you have been through something you are less than and that sharing things that have happened in the past should stay there but that is simply just not true. Keeping it real as a parent and person is so important. Kids, Partners, Spouses they know when we are upset or something has caused us to go from enjoying a moment to freaking out or having a panic attack. If you aren't real about the things that cause you to feel a certain way someone may think it's their fault. You will continue this pattern of pain and rejection that you most likely you have faced or will cause someone to now face. It's not easy being vulnerable or speaking truth especially when it means loosing those we love. Truth may not always grant you physical freedom, but it is more likely to grant you mental freedom.
As many of you have come to realize over the past few months being ripped away from everything you know and your everyday life can be impactful. Being stuck away from those you love and the outside world can take a toll on even the strongest person. Unfortunately not only did we go through all of that but we were not prepared whatsoever for anything mentally, educationally or financially and were made to feel so incredibly worthless. It has been six years since I lost an amazing friend and fellow survivor. The story of what we endured and our true triumphant strength needs to be told, heard and used to help anyone everyone know truly what happened to so many teens.
What you see is what you get. I’m a weird, wonderful, uniquely one of a kind cancer surviving, cult escaping (without a high school diploma), brain and 3 time spine surgery having divorced mom of two. I know more pain than most should in a lifetime but with that comes more happiness than anyone can know in a lifetime. When we experience what no man should you learn to appreciate all that you ever could.