That Weird Friend

I didn't upload a podcast last week. I thought about just continuing on with this week's episode and not talking about why I skipped  last week. But then I decided that it was important to talk about feeling guilty about taking breaks and why that culture should change in the future.

The name of the computer game I couldn’t remember is Friv! It was so fun to tell stories that I didn’t even know I remembered. I plan on doing more story time episodes because this was exciting to record and edit. I like thinking about the happy moments of the past and seeing how far I have come, but also how I have stayed the same in a lot of ways, too. Life is fun and a rollercoaster, man!

Did you ever write a letter in high school and get told it would be mailed to you in 5 years? That is what happened to me. I got the letter in the mail last summer, but I put it in the deep depths of my drawer. I was afraid to read it, afraid of what I thought I would be doing now versus what I am actually doing. In this episode, I read the letter and reflect on how it made me feel. It might surprise you. It surely surprised me.

I was always weird. I used to talk in metaphors. I still do. I didn't go to prom. I finished my high school doing home instruction aka doing my school work at home because I was in too much pain to go to school. I lost a lot of my friends and had to start brand new. But it all made me who I am today and for that I am thankful. Maybe being weird and having a unique story isn't so bad after all.

This podcast episode was sitting on my computer for around a month. I recorded it at a time when I was excited to post, but then my excitement dwindled. I was nervous that I sounded "bad" or "stupid" and I was getting down on myself. After taking a step back and regrouping, I listened to it again and it brought a smile to my face. I like what I said, how I said it, and how it made me feel. I am proud to post my first podcast episode where I discuss my current feelings toward COVID, somewhat fun and funny haikus that I wrote in angst, and my dream podcast guests that I will have on in the future (#manifesting).

Have you ever felt like the "weird one" in the group? You might stumble on your words when everyone seems to speak so perfectly, or have more embarrassing stories than everyone else, or just regularly voice your biggest dreams and desires when other people have settled for the bare minimum. Why does 'different' tend to be labeled as 'weird'? We all have 'weird' tendencies that can make us feel like outcasts if we let them. Let's be honest and open, so together, we can feel less alone and more like we're huddled by a fire roasting marshmallows on a beautiful beach in Hawaii.