The Smiling Minimalist - Self Love Journey

I can’t believe I have been in the coding Bootcamp for 7 weeks now! It was been an amazing experience. There has been so many group projects and personal projects that have happened within these weeks. I look at my code all the time because I can’t believe I built it. This has been so much fun. I have been coding for 10-12 hours daily and balancing that with being a mom and a wife. It’s been an adventure for sure. I have kept a detailed journal since day one and I plan on publishing that very soon. I wish you much laughter and smiles. Have a great day!

Here is the day recap and things I learned and things I broke. Lol it was awesome and the group project went great.

Today I go over what exactly happened in the coding Bootcamp on Day 6. I attend a very well known coding Bootcamp with an amazing team. I decided to go for my dreams and push myself beyond my comfort level. I tell you the mistakes I made, what I learned and what’s to come. Thanks for listening!

I joined a coding bootcamp. I’m pretty excited to have somewhere I can learn without hopping all around. I will be doing daily updates on my day in the bootcamp. 2021 is the year of no fear. A year of going for dreams I was afraid to do because I didn’t think I was good enough. So here’s to starting over from the very beginning. Thanks for listening. Also checkout my YouTube channel. The Smiling Minimalist

I joined a coding Bootcamp that started January 10 2021. I’m pretty excited. Everyday we have been learning more and more and stacking on the previous day knowledge. Follow along with me as I do an end of the day recap of the coding Bootcamp. On a journey to doing what I love and continuing self love which is working towards doing what I enjoy. Thank you for listening!

Take a moment to breath and fill your soul. Things are a bit hectic now around us but we can still be at peace. Join me for a moment of peace and clarity. I hope your day is bright and your soul continues to shine. You are loved. You are wonderful.

A journal reading that captures determination but also a bit of fear of failure.

I believe that in a world where bloggers and Youtuber’s show perfection there are some of us who crave the reality of things. No one is perfect. My cookies do not come out perfect every time nor do all my succulents thrive and grow gorgeous. Sometimes I yell, sometimes I cry but that’s what makes me human. So I strive for honesty and to be the best version of myself that I can be and embrace the good and bad in life one day at a time.

Goal setting at the beginning of the year changed our lives. It took the wants in our hearts and made them unwavering needs.

This entry captures the breaking point in our parenting style where I knew there had to be a better way. This lead to tons of library trips but it was all worth it.

Some times there are struggles in a marriage. We feel let down and defeated because we’re burnt out from carrying it all on our shoulders. This journal reading captures a moment of frustration within my marriage. We went to marriage counseling and discovered that I had never told him what I needed. He thought what he was doing was fine. I suggest to you to open your mouth and speak up. But do it kindly. Thanks for tuning in as this was a hard read for me but I read it how it was written with honesty. Whew

Journal reading about facing anxiety and putting an end to self sabotage

Thank you for joining me on today for a journal reading. Still diving deeper into my being and learning to love self

What is ones worthiness measured by? Are we truly honest with ourselves? Today I talk about my emotions after a guided meditation. I feel behind most days, angry and sometimes sad. Welcome to the whirlwind of my mind as I continue to pursue happiness and smiling.

Self reflection today and a moment of gratitude opened my eyes to how I truly feel and why. We feel anger and anxiety when things are out of balance with our very being. We have to be kind to ourselves and remember each day is a day to start fresh.

Thanks for joining me again for another journal reading. Today’s reading captures the pieces of a disorganized life and shows things are crumbling. It seemed like a stressful spot that I was in but also it was the push I needed to go on a journey for financial independence.

Today’s journal entry captures my thoughts on finding my purpose and waiting for it to show it self. I believe it was there all along but the past me chose to look past it as I felt I was not enough.

Today I expand on my last podcast about growing up fearful for my life and that of loved ones but also the trickling affect of angry children and how that leads to angry adults who then have angry children. A loop of anxiety and despair that must be broken.

I grew up in Mississippi where whooping and school paddling is normal. Kids routinely got beat in front the class with grown men hitting the young black girls and boys with all their strength. Sometimes the students couldn’t even walk afterwards. This was a daily normal for us. The beatings continued and creating damaged young adults. It taught nothing fear.

Sometimes we push against life trying to shape the days and nights into what we believe to be what we need. But I’m learning to sit back, write it out and do a bit at a time. It’s not a race but a Journey.

Here is a short poem oI wrote that expressed my joy of parenting but the push towards being the bet person I can be. Join me in the journey of motherhood in today’s Spoken word.m, Enlighten Me.

Today’s journal reading captures the moment where I affirm the changes I want and remind myself to love.

I was clenching my jaw so hard from the stress that I was having constant migraines and lock jaw. Surprising how our mental anguish shows in our physical bodies. Do you find yourself clenching your jaw?

This journal entry captures my attempt at the time to schedule a routine for myself and my family that would push me through the rough days. This schedule allowed me to keep moving even if it felt robotic at times. When I lacked the willpower this allowed me to push forward. I knew exactly what would happen next according to the daily alarms on my phone for throughout the day.

This journal entry captures my struggle to be okay with not pursuing my dreams and giving up my career in order to be a mother and wife.

This episode captures a moment when I was facing imposter syndrome. The universe opened doors when I thought everything had shut. I gave up my dream of being a game developer and the opportunity of what I thought was a lifetime. Yet the Universe knows

This journal reading captures the anguish I felt on having to give up a career stepping block and choose my family over that goal. I had to put aside my personal goal and choose what was best for my family.

Today’s journal reading captures a day where I was setting my intentions for the rest of my life. I was striving for a better me but also for a happiness that was genuine and that would carry my family for years to come. The dream of a balanced family with a very deep rooted love.

On today my heart is heavy. I lost my daddy on the other day. It’s been a whirlwind of decisions, and emotions. I am pushing forward because as a veteran he instilled in his kids the discipline to push forward. I miss my dad. He dedicated most of his life to Nursing and ran a local nursing home where he was the only male nurse and his residents adored him. He is truly missed.

I spiraled down a world of negativity but also the feeling of being overwhelmed. Stress eating and failure piled on to me until I was overweight with hair falling out.

Today’s podcasts Captures my thoughts while going through a cycle of worry but also the feeling of being inadequate and not enough. I felt that my worth had disappeared the day I stopped working and decided to become a stay at home mom.

Join me on today for meditation at night as I count the stars. I wanted to bring you along to my sacred time in which I have learned to balance my mind but also life. This practice has brought me much peace and allowed me to learn to be present.

In today’s episode, I will read a journal entry that captures the pivots moment in my life. The day I decided to face the music, face my anxiety and kick depression out of my life. I Faced the music and Accepted my flaws.

This is a very short reading to day from my journal but it captures a very authentic moment of joy.

A journal entry that is read without editing but in it’s entirety and with the full rawness of exactly how it was written that day.

This is a tale of how I lived with Postpartum Depression but also how I overcame it.

Starting today I will be reading from my journal. Unedited. It will be my thoughts starting in June of 2018 when I first started feeling unrest and the need to change. I didn’t know how but I still arrived. I began minimalism and many other healthy practices to strengthen my mind and body.

An update on my mental and physical health. I set out over a year ago to evolve beyond what I felt was a broken woman who was crawling out of the darkness of postpartum depression. This is my tale, my life, my Victory. Come join me along the Journey as I pursue Minimalism, Dream Career and Strive to Truly love myself.

Self Love Journey and mental health recap from last week about anxiety and postpartum depression

A day of reflection and inspiration to keep pushing even when it’s hard.

self Love Journey update and recap of 2019

This self Love Journey has been like a roller coaster ride. I build confidence and push through yet still have to battle really bad anxiety. Follow along as I discover how to love myself while dealing with anxiety.

Join me on my self Love Journey as I go after all my dreams and capture my fears all while being a mom and wife. There’s no secrets.

My struggles in life and I work my way to loving myself and accepting all my imperfections.

Diving deep into how my self love journey is going and the habits I’m developing as I transformed into the best me

Starting my day with gratitude and watching my thoughts drift by