I Think So. . .
By Azania Love
I Think So. . .Jan 28, 2023
The Liberation of Expression
Thank you for tapping on. I have been missing in action for a little while.
I asked AI why I disappear and it told me, I am a perfectionist and if I feel it's not gonna be what I absolutely want it to be, i'd prefer not deliver it... There goes the therapists jobs 🤣
Anywho. I'm a little rusty from my disappearance. In this weeks episode i'm talking about how words need to be expressed, but in that expression we need to create a distance or better said not attach to the words that we're saying. Regardless of what we’re saying.
As beings we really want to be heard, validated, acknowledged, were not comfortable with people, not agreeing or seeing our point of view. So every time we say something, we kinda go in with an agenda... to have the other person see our side. So we express ourselves in such a way, that will we be believed, understood ... we become the story, the expression.
Expressing ourselves undoubtedly gives us a sense of liberation. Attaching ourselves to the meaning does not.
Join me in the 30 day challenge mentioned in the episode and come and find me after you done it and let me knnow the transformation.
Until the next episode ... ✌🏾
Reincarnated Back to Yesterday
So the questions are, are we trapped in the same cycle?
Is living in the Now even possible ?
How can we insert ourselves into the Now and move on from that space?
Do we ever get to start a fresh?
We are a continuation of yesterday. Constantly being brought back (quite naturally) to where we left of the day before.
Fighting to place are minds in peace, only to get wrapped back up in what's our everyday.
It's like we are taking constant brief escapes.
Anywho let me know what YOU think. And until the next episode watch your thoughts 💭
It's Pointless Asking Why!
The questioning State is Not a Good State to be in!
So as I was about to go down the very dark road of asking myself, why are some of the things, I thought I left behind showing back up for me, noise, demons, lack of peace. I first felt my body start to sink. I immediately remembered, there is nothing down this road of just questioning why.
The reason that it's not working out and things are showing up in the way that they are because, you are in a state of transition and your focus is off. Which I didn't say in the episode, which in fact is key.
When you're idling and not in a focused state you leave your self open for all the untrained thinking negative thought attacks to 'fly back' to you and attack.
Your job is to become aware of this and not be lead astray. Your job Is to come into this awareness, that when this happens it means you've fallen off track and it's time to get back on.
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Some concepts that have floated into my awareness lately has really allowed me to stop and think about, how at this stage, am I going to move forward. What thoughts, thinking, am I taking with me and what I am not.
I have been thrashing out these concepts in Mind Notes Journal. The place where you write only what's on your mind, as oppose to writing shopping lists, to do lists, security passwords and stuff.
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Wanna open out the discussion? leave me a question or a comment.
And until the next episode
Watch Your Thoughts
Azania x
Rethinking Suicide ...
What if we were the virus? What if we are living inside a being that could detect weaker 'cells' that was causing damage or turbulence to it being. What if you could believe in anything as long as you stay firmed and strong in those beliefs, didn’t waiver and cause a breakdown within the being body. The last concept I haven't discussed here but it would appear that there is some strength to that argument, as it's not as if the being has preference to only the things that are good. I had these thoughts for long and wanted to just let go and let out all original thought, as a way to release my self from the repetition of thinking. And allow higher frequency thought to be picked up upon. I hope you enjoy this episode, you have to be pretty open for this one and until the next episode stay strong and watch your thoughts.
Edit: As I am listening back for the umpteenth time, there's more to add here.
So it feels like there's a way to act inside this body whereby you can go undetected and also each section could be controlled by different programmers and the programmers roles are just to ensure=, that you stick within the program.
You can also seem to move to different locations around the body, whereby it maybe easier to live and breathe. Whereas some sections of the body are dense and you constantly have to fight for your existence.
Like we are the bodies consciousness and it goes through cycles and phases. And when the body dies we move onto another body.
And we're all just fighting for some significance and a better more freer place to be...
Anywho much more to add at another time.
xxx
You Had No Intention!
I have actually had this tattoo for over 10 years!
The link word I think was 'near.'
If you know that effect that everyones currently speaking about where people are recognising that things are being changed, like the information in the books, a bit like what happened in the movie inception, where when you play with one thing another thing happens. Well that's what I was trying to explain is happening to me now I am putting out more works, I am coming off of this repetitive circle, that was so plaguing me at the ending of last year.
Other than that let me know what comes up for you as you’re listening.
What aspect of your life is in your drafts?
Here's a link to the notebook I created
Order one today:) It's has really cool thick pages, just like a workbook. Let's have an easier time navigating the world by watching our thoughts together.
Until the next episode ... buy the book bye 😘
Cold Showers Reprogrammed My Thinking !
Clearly I'm an undercover white guy with stoic tendencies. Hahaha.
So I took cold showers for the entire month of February, I know 28 days. But I realised how many times, I've said I don't feel like it, with no real valid reason.
Our emotions are our precious navigation system. Telling us when to rest, when enough is enough. But how helpful are they really when it comes to achieving your deepest desires.
How have our emotions, blocked or stopped us from doing what will know will bring us joy.
For me looking back a lot of times.
I remember reading something on how helpful are our emotions and at the I was like huh. They are our guidance system duh.
But here we are today and i get what he was writing about.
Any who apart from the long story about teaching the cleaning staff the standard of @twotwoseven_ check me out on insta and click the link in bio to book via airbnb, although you get a better rate booking through me. This episode looks at the breakthroughs and little revelations of doing the nearly 30 days cold shower .
Enjoy & thanks for listening and ill speak to you on the next episode
Azania
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March 7, 2023
I Do Not Want To Exist.
The turmoil of not really knowing why you don't want to exist is exhausting in it’s self.
The things that appeared, to not be working out, were seemingly the clear reasons as to why everything felt too much, but for me there felt like this underlying reason that I couldn't tap into, that made saying things are not working out for me, a really silly idea for not wanting to exist.
This deeper reasoning, makes it difficult for those who see you go through the silent turmoil, or wake up to the person they love dead.
There are some things that can't be explained, medically. So the only other route is to look for the answers spiritually. Well at least that what i believe. I will be making an episode soon on my true thoughts about what i believe is happening with suicidal thought and action.
So until the that episode please watch your thoughts it could be a matter of life and death❤️
Spotify listeners let me know what you think of the video..Don't know if Anchor viewers can see it🤭
Are you a low level thinker?
Trying To Change The Narrative
I Should Have Never Been In That Relationship!
To this date there is not one relationship I've been in that should have lasted past the 3 year mark! Period And because of my continual overriding of this fact I now have Fibroids. Sounds drastic but the new research is there ! Have a listen and tell me what you think..
Your Thoughts Need An Anchor!
After attempting to produce 1 piece of content for multiple platforms and failing, I manage to come with this! Your thoughts need an anchor and any anchor will do. The more negative the better.
On this week episode, I know I say that like I released an episode every week😅. Anywho, I speak about how your thoughts only exist because we anchor them into our thinking and if we don't attach to them they can't exist.
I missed being on here. I actually have 3 episode in draft to release so be sure to subscribe and check them out when i let them go:)
Until the next episode Watch Your Thoughts
Azania❤️
It's The First of the Month. Now what?
Hello June, Hello May, Hello September ... like argg kill me now!
But that's the thing, we just keep on repeating the cycle, never stopping to think, why do we do things this way. And only when we're burnt out, disillusioned with life, do we stop to consider, what's it all about.
in this episode I talk about feeling tense around the start of each month as for many years I have bought into the concept of fresh beginnings and all that comes with it. It's only when I realised, that not everything I wanted came to fruition, no matter how many times I wrote it out and down.
It's the first of the month, how could we look at it differently or maybe we could just ignore the monthly reset and go with the natural flow.
Azania❤️
Are We Naturally Negative ?
The level of maintenance we need to do in order to stay 'grounded' is astounding. If we are not throwing rocks, crystals or bones, we're frantically pulling affirmation cards, writing down what's troubling us, going for walks, signing up to the better health app, (ok thats a recent thing I see amongst all the creators I've subscribe to on YouTube) letting go of those that are openly negative, not tuning into the mass production of negativity, all in the hope of lifting our mood or raising our vibration.
In this episode, I wonder & talk about if we or at least me is set to negative. The natural question that arose here was can we just be, without having things lined up to do?
As always thanks for listening and if your coming from spotify, hit the subscribe button:)
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Azania ❤️
Lacking Creativity !
Sounding like a bitter Betty for not having Twitter Followers😂 I know. And I also know there others factors to no-one following, i.e not finding the right people I want to follow, so that I can genuinely comment on their tweets, etc etc.. but I was making harnessing the point that just to start something, that appears authentic, doesn't immediately afford you an audience!
Original creation hs to take a backseat to repetitive un-original creation as those with more abstract minds tend not to seek out the same or find themselves in the sea of sameness and so I believe it's perhaps harder to find each other and create communities we actually want to be part of.
In this episode I was caught in thought and wanted to express my feelings towards what it takes to be a creative and the spaces, mentally we can end up in.
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The Secret Art Of Dropping - How To Let Thoughts go.
You can't live in two realities at the same time and experience peace.
The art of truly dropping something is having no attachment to it. There is no longer a need to express your feelings toward the subject. To debate about the topic. When you drop thought, you actually forget, the issue, until it's get raised by somebody else.
Lots of people will declare that they've let and issue go. Or they don't care anymore, but the fact is they are still carrying, the pain, the hurt, the disappointment.
In this episode (If I can remember as it was in my draft for a few days😅) I talk about what it means to really drop something and free yourself from the trappings of feeling like you let go but really still stuck and just secretly carrying the issue.
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Azania ❤️
I'm In The Sunken Place
What happens when you start noticing your thoughts and then expose them?
In this episode I moan quite a-lot about Instagram and the perils of trying to delete your account. But more than that, I talk about catching the thoughts that send you to the sunken place and speak about what I did to get back.
Keeping the script short and sweet today as I have a YouTube video to edit and the wifi here in Zanzibar is quite shite, so it may take me all night, although I want to release at 19:00
So until the next long winded script, keep watching those thoughts.
Azania ❤️
You Don't Know What You Don't Know
I don't like routine or repetition much. So recognising the patterns that life takes you in was a long time coming, although it shouldn’t have been.
In this episode, with my slightly flat voice haha, I talk about how at the end of 2021 I became so acutely aware of not wanting to repeat this dead cycle, or at least from the same perspective as I had been. I also speak about relinquishing me connection to spirituality.
In other great news my notebook dedicated to thoughts is ready 🥳🥳🥳 Not sure why I cannot use the link button😏, once i figure that out i'll be back with a link, maybe google azania love mind notes on Amazon.
Until the next episode...Watch Your Thoughts ❤️
Keep Africans In Africa & How We Ingrain Our Thoughts
First of all, Mission, Keep Africans in Africa is all about guiding those Africans that believe everything is perfect further a field is to show them it's not. And Melanated peoples still struggle within these countries. Also It's about updated them on how to really be free, which I understand, having access to jobs gives certain freedoms but to understand you're still a slave to the jobs in other countries.
I know people will say there are some studying for less or free in other peoples institutions, but the doctorate you may be studying for may not be worth it. There are many doctors, professionals leaving there jobs for the freedom of working online or creating business they actually love.
I also know the argument for being able to earn and save more with menial jobs, but it still comes at a cost.
Ok that said, In this episode I give an example of how thoughts get ingrained in our minds and eventually come back to bite us in the mental a£$$.
When we put a lot of energy, emotion behind the things that occur for us we inevitably end up ingraining that thought or thoughts to our neural pathways.
This is why any childhood traumas, experiences keep repeating over and over in our mind. They then attach to similar thoughts and can spin us out of control in no time. Which is why it's important to pay attentions to our thoughts at all times, until we have this practice on lock, so to speak.
I give an example of how my I let my passion for justice spill out onto instagram and how I cleaned it up.
We are what we eat and we are also what we pay attention to. When your beginning to work with thought and thinking it's really important to not allow yourself to get to distracted with what's happening outside yourself and outside of what you can control
Sasa, I am going to leave it there and thank you so much for listening and until the next episode
Watch Your Thoughts
Azania ❤️
Do You Know What Your body Feels Like?
Have you ever touched your body without thought ? In this quick little episode I speak about how our thoughts are always there telling us what we should be thinking and feeling about our bodies. I didn't mention that our thoughts have been programmed, but i'll go into that at a later date.
For today, the take-away is, what exactly does our body feel like without thought.
I Don't Want To Be Here & The Repetitive Nature of Thought
It's the repetition for me.
Thoughts have a way of just repeating themselves. They can quite happily just say the same thing over and over again.
Take me for example I spent 20 years staring at my belly ( after giving birth ) wondering what I was now going to do about this distinctly 'ugly' belly. The thoughts kept on plaguing me around size, shape and attractiveness. Regardless of what I tried to do / change about my stomach, the thought always keep me focused and unhappy with what I was looking at.
In this episode I talk about not focusing on the issue, i.e. my belly is fat, or whatever the body issue is and focus on the thought itself. Putting the thought in the spotlight. When you do this the thought acts different.
I don't want to be hear. I speak about this in depth, in another issue, but it is just to be aware that the same thing happens when the thought continues to throw into your awareness, what's the point, of you being here, I believe using the last episode technique and thinking about the thought not the real worlds issue, can challenge the way that you think about that said issue.
If you’re listening on this through Spotify i am sure I've left a space for questions, feel free to send what your thinking about thought.
Until the next episode, keep thinking about your thinking and Watch Your Thoughts.
Breaking Up With Your Thoughts
Thoughts appear to be, natural to our being. We wake up and we're flooded with thought. We sit in our cars and remember all the things we should have done before we left the house. We could be minding our own business and we're interrupted by obtrusive thoughts. We spend most of our time in thought.
And we are attached.
As a prerequisite to our little chats about thought, I need you to do me a favour and see your thoughts as separate to your being. There’s you and then there's your thought.
When I started learning about thought. I believed this concept to be a little strange and a little confusing. But as time went on and i began to watch and notice my thoughts and thinking patterns, it became clearer.
Here's what I did. I started to see my thoughts as sheep. Each time one popped into my head, I would see it and count it.
For example:
I got this bill to pay - thought
I don't have the money to pay it - thought
I can't stand my job -thought
That bitch at my Work-Place - thought
Regardless whether they are true, your current living experience, they are all thoughts.
All you need to do at this time is separate and recognise them.
In the podcast it appeared that I gave you many things to become aware of, (sorry for that) but the main premise is just to separate from your thoughts.
Once you begin to see them as separate from you. You can easily begin to recognise changes in feeling, i.e. why am I feeling bad etc and start to regain control over them and your life.
As for the flies someone let me know 😂
Keep up with me over on Youtube @
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I'm not sure whether I mentioned in the first episode I'm creating thought Journals. Well now I've finalised my design, so looking forward to getting them out. Stay tuned for those.
Until next time thanks for listening and watch those thoughts
Azania❤️
I think so
In this episode I talk about finally releasing this podcast on THOUGHT and how said thoughts has stopped me from, in the most dramatic ways. Living my life in the way I visualise it to be. (I actually wrote something else however it disappeared so I'm now guessing what I had said before.)
Anywho, I briefly mention how thought plagued me to the point of not wanting to be here, and how once I began to understand the nature of thought for my self, not only have I started to know thought better and how it moves, hides and disrupts I am also able to recognise how to speak to thought in a way that allows you live in a better state of being.
I also quickly say I am in the process of creating a thought journal and how and what to write in so you don't further ignite the wrong thoughts.
I would love to create a community based around thoughts, that's not just for stuffy academia, to where understanding your thoughts is attainable by all.
Well I look forward to the next episode.
Thank you for reading and listening
Azania